Man, this past four days has been a roller coaster of ups and downs, especially with all the political commotion and controversies happening throughout the US. Even my parents are worried about what's going to happen now, since people are bawling over the fact that someone very important to them (and many other people) died early on into their life. I honestly don't know what will happen either, because I never looked too much into the situation about the person who died, and I know it's pretty bad from how my dad described it. I do really hope my parents get over their sadness about that person. Not really sure why I didn't even care much about the situation in the first place, but it became VERY widespread according to my dad's YouTube recommendations (and even mine, since it shows major news headlines that are politics related on my feed, even though I don't watch political news videos on my account). Speaking of recommendations, I am still very rarely getting videos that would show up on my dad's feed (since it shows recommendations from other people on your internet connection), and I still don't like that. I've gotten at least one video about the guy on my feed and immediately clicked not interested on it because it was DEFINITELY not for me. Anyways, disregarding all of that bad news, I'm still slacking off on this site. Even then, I have to plan and design the sections of the site I want to create, and my mind just isn't clicking, going back to watching YouTube all day like a mindless doomscroller would. Still trying to get out of that mindset, might I add, but 2020 messed up how I deal with what's considered my "free time", so it'll take a while. I am really looking forward to seeing this site polished up perhaps by the end of this year.
Well, it's been a couple days since my birthday, but I forgot to write anything about it. Anyways, the day after the previous entry, I went to the zoo with some relatives of mine, including one with a child (that I'm an uncle to). I haven't really visited it in a long while, but it felt nice to see experience it again, even many years later. We stopped by a bunch of exhibits that were in the zoo, such as Africa, the Rainforest, and the wilderness of Florida. I was insisting on going to another exhibit, which had Komodo Dragons and kangaroos, but it apparently was closed off for renovations that day. I would've really loved to see all the various animals there, but maybe next visit I could if it's open. During our trip to the zoo, I took roughly 75 photos and videos combined, and I'm thinking about showing them off on this site as well in the future (when I get to it, at least). On the day of my birthday, I recieved lots of birthday messages from people online and also some of my relatives. I even got two of the same type of birthday message from different people! The relative with the child did get me a cookie cake to eat with me, my mom and my dad, so that was nice. Other than that, I think I enjoyed myself to the best of my ability during those two days, and it was nice to interact with family again. Again, expect more to come with this site other than these diary entries, because writing down these dreams and diary entries won't be the only thing I'll be doing with this site (hopefully).
Sorry about that rant in the previous diary entry, I just wanted to get things off of my mind on that day. Anyways, my birthday is in 2 days and I wonder what I'll get for my 19th birthday... I haven't really suggested anything much for my parents to get for my birthday, but I am thinking on getting a PS Vita since it felt nostalgic to see people modding it with all these cool themes and games people have ported or made for the system. Other than that, I am trying my best to figure out what to do for this site... I am planning on gathering screenshots of personal bests I've accomplished from Wii Fit U, since it's probably easier to share them here. Speaking of that, I've renamed the Wii U shrine (which I haven't started working on yet) to be the 2010s shrine because that's the time in my life where I experienced a lot of things, especially video game consoles, and I've had a wide variety of memories from that decade. For the theming of that site, I'm thinking of doing a variety of sections themed around the specific console or memory from that decade. For the other shrines, though, I'm not sure of the theming for each of them, but I'll get it figured out eventually. I also have a bunch of notes I've written at the Christian church I got to (since mid 2019) which I feel like showing off on this site as well, so expect something like that on my site in the future. In conclusion, I'm still an all-over-the-place guy with these interesting things I'm remembering and starting to learn about, so maybe I could share some more interests and doo-dads in my life through this site.
It's been four days since I've streamed making this site again, and I'm still slacking on trying to make it again. I'm really not sure what in the world is going on with my brain, since it still keeps being lazy all the time... Even then, my parents keep telling me to make a schedule like most adults have, and I barely even follow them because my mind has been stuck in the "stay inside the house and get lost in your electronics because that's all you can do" mentality, and I HATE IT SO MUCH! Like, why can't my brain just be like every other Gen Z like me, being able to talk with real life friends (or online ones too, but I already do that), being able to go wherever you want without your parents permissions (I still need to get a learner's permit, but I've failed that test four times now and I still don't feel like I'm ready), and express wholeheartedly what I do on the internet (which I barely do, and I kind of showing that through this website lol). It just doesn't feel right just laying in bed watching YouTube and chatting with random strangers on the internet almost every waking hour of my life... Sorry for ranting on for so long but it's just been like that for so long in my daily life, even into the late night hours (which I stayed up until around 5 am last night trying to report degenerate ROBLOX avatars just because it seemed interesting to do), and that's just how my brain wants to do it's routine. All I do is wake up, check on Pokemon Sleep, chat on Discord for a bit, watch YouTube, get up, wash my face, go back in the room until lunch time to watch more YouTube and chat with more strangers, do the same for dinner, and more after dinner until I go to bed in the wayyyyy late hours in the night. I'm still trying my best to get the hang of myself, but my brain just isn't clicking. Hopefully I can fix this with the schedule thing my mom and dad were talking about, if I get to making one at least.
Man, it's getting pretty hot right before summer ends... yesterday it felt like I was getting hammered with heat while we were going into a mall. I did go to a restaurant inside said mall and ate a very nice smash cheeseburger with two burger patties... it tasted great! After that, we walked around and took a gander in some stores for a little while, and I managed to sneak BFDI on two of the MacBooks in there. I saw one kid looking at one of them, felt pretty funny to me to remember, and I even got a picture of it!
Other than that, I've decked out this site a little bit more, and I also managed to modify the Rec Room shrine I'm working on by making it look like the loading screen of the game! I'm still thinking on the other shrines though and how they will be styled, but we'll see!
I've been gathering a bunch of stamps, buttons, blinkies, and other do-dads that people put on sites, that way I can share them to show people what my interests are and what I am! There's a lot of repositories for this stuff, and I may start making some of my own with the gifs I've been sharing on Tenor too. Might not be a bad idea.
Also, I have to do what's called a "TABE test" tomorrow for my cybersecurity, which involves testing my English and Mathematics capabilities, so I hope I’ll do well in them!
Heya. First diary entry ever. This’ll be for interesting things I do in my life and whatever else that I decide to put here. Today, I had a pre-screening appointment for a potential opportunity to do more cybersecurity tasks related to tech support. The course will start in the fall of this year, and I can’t wait to see what it has in store for me. I’ve been a tech guru for a long while now (especially with the classes I did related to cybersecurity), so I’m glad that I can use technology more! I honestly have no idea how long it’ll go for, but I do know I have to do a specific test before and after I finish the class to see how well my English and Math skills have evolved over time. Other than that, it did feel nice to stretch my legs a little bit more, especially because we had to run some errands after my interview was over. By the way, school started two days ago for most people, but not me! I’ve got nothin’ but that course to deal with right now while I’m out of high school at least, so that’s good.
Also, yesterday, I started compiling more of the media that I'll use for the "Stuff" section of the site, including memes I want to share, more art that I've created over the years, and more, so I hope that will all fit into the site.
Near the start of the dream, I was at a variant of my old/new house combined, where there were a bunch of lizards trying to move around in a playpen and into my house. It sounded like they were saying a certain phrase such as “let me in I need to move”or something like that. I was also using some sort of Android phone at the time while trying to talk with someone else in the house along with my parentsAt the end of the dream, it switched to a moment where I was giving red pushpin to a bystander who was kindly letting students (like me) give them as many as they want for use in an advertisement. It was near the edge of a bridge and a park. By the way, it's becoming harder to write down these dreams because of the amount of times they've switched scenes so much.
I saw a YouTuber saying in a Discord text channel that they posted three test videos on a completely separate and unknown YouTube channel. One was a blank screen, another was a subtitle test further on into a 30 minute video, and a third which I forgot the purpose of. I was planning on archiving them (since I do that), but I got distracted in the dream and couldn’t type the commands to get them in full. It felt dark like how I’m usually up at night looking at stuff on the internet.
Again, my thoughts and dreams moved around a lot, mostly focusing on certain YouTube videos and Pokemon, again. Didn’t have the willpower to write all of it down when it happened, but I do know that my brain kept switching a lot of what was in the dream, just because I was processing so much information. Some of it involved me being in online discussions, then it switches to me looking up certain pokemon images. Maybe it’s switching it a bunch cause I tend to focus on multiple windows at once on my computer, and it’s trying to replicate that. Who knows...
I had various dreams throughout the night. One included my ROBLOX account getting hacked and warned for doing inappropriate things, and other involved my account getting suspended for saying random gibberish. Both of those suspensions happened while I was listening to and watching YouTube videos about various people getting suspended randomly on ROBLOX. I had a second one though, but I forgot about what it was before coming across the third one, which had me looking up the wiki pages of various Pokemon that I had briefly thought about or seen during the day, such as Slowpoke and Slowbro, primarily at the info box where it had the main stats of the Pokemon. All of these involved me looking near the edge of a very dimmed computer screen. A fourth one involved me being inside a blend between an office complex and a school department, which involved me either walking around inside of its many rooms and hallways, or being outside the door of it, seeing various women in the background playing in a large tree that was in the parking lot, or shooting guns. Some of them shot the guns trying to kill people, but my mom shot one of them right as a closed my eyes. I then covered myself with a bunch of pictures of various husky dogs (via some sort of Windows 7-esque window manager) to try and make myself safer, before I woke up.
The dream involved me chatting with someone in a Discord chat and telling the person I was talking to where I was going to IRL (which was a Mexican restaurant's drive thru). They pulled up next to my car in a truck that was larger than mine. Dad wondered why they were here, and both talked about how we met though Discord and provided our online usernames. I could barely remember anything else about the dream at the time of writing this (because I was busy and forgot to write it all down when I initially woke up).
The dream mostly involved airplanes and my family in the first half, including a giant airplane used for a party being explored on the outside and the inside, with me and my family talking to each other most of the time. The location switched from outside to inside the plane, with people either leaving to go back outside, or being forcefully thrown out the windows (don’t worry, they were ok). The scene then transformed into a snow igloo from the inside, with two Simpsons characters building up a pile of snow while singing something. They were similar to Bart and Lisa. The character similar to Bart went outside by going towards an ice door, which transitioned back outside.
The second half involved me talking with multiple online personas/avatars, which then transformed into a video where someone was predicting how difficult a game of a specific version of Tetris would get, taking account the tileset used, the tetraminos used, and the player count of the match. I do remember talking to some of the avatars before it transitioned into the video. Nothing else was apparent in this half other than some of the sprites of the avatars mentioned in the video being similar to classic Sonic sprites, and the names of the people sort of resembling furry-like names; however, I did experience some Tetris gameplay while the video was going on, and there were big tetraminos placed, with some of them ending the game instantly.
I was walking through an indoor outlet mall with both my parents and grandparents, going to all different shops with bright lighting conditions and whatnot, as passerby’s walked the opposite direction. We come up on an opening to the outside world (right after an intersection), where we come up on a place that seemed familiar. Our dog, which made us think of the place, was suddenly added to the dream, which somewhat resembled her when she was in the dream. My mom reenacts the scene where she gives two treats to the dog, and afterwards she stands on her hind legs. The previous time this happened, mom gave her two treats and she didn’t eat any more; however, this time she actually ate all four treats she was going to give her! My mom praised her for reenacting the moment, and then my dream ends as we all walk back where we came from.
This dream involved scenarios where I was interacting with an online friend I remember (but for some reason his channel and appearance were changed). He was doing a live stream IRL which involved him being in a tall office space and also a nearby parking lot. One scene involved him in a game-esque scenario where he were near the void, and for the content he jumped into said void before respawning; however, I sneakily joined into his stream by jumping from higher point into the void before he jumped in himself, with me being in a sort of zen pose. He didn’t notice me appearing in the stream at first, nor did anyone call it out before the dream cut into a different video premiere where a potential dubbing (in Spanish) of TPOT 6 (The Power of Two, which is a part of the BFDI series) took place. I do remember seeing Tennis Ball in the dream, looking down into a pit with the other members on his team, before looking back after someone stops talking. I don’t remember anything else from the dream after that.
Today’s dream involved characters from the BFDI (Battle for Dream Island series) and what my mind thought the next episode of BFDIA (Battle for Dream Island Again, episode 23) would look like. The first scene I saw involved Ruby and Book running happily with each other while the sun was rising for day time. I’m not sure why I thought of this since (spoilers) Book died at the end of the most recent episode (22). The two then arrive at the HPRC and they begin recovering some of the dead contestants (the ones who are and aren’t in the game) until transitioning to the LoL (Locker of Losers), with the contestants (who didn’t get into the final contestant list at the start of BFDIA 1) bantering with each other. I believe Pin was flying off in the distance with her mech suit (again, she (spoilers) lost her mech suit last episode when saving Woody, and Woody currently has it), maybe with Coiny. I don’t think I remember much else other than me just dreaming about potential lines the characters could have said, but it was a bit of a mixed bag. Perhaps my mind thought of the episode before the current one (21), which did involve Pin and Coiny (spoilers) flying off towards the sunset at the end of the episode.
Some sort of game-show esque dream, felt like another quick one like yesterday, but I remember more that it was inspired somewhat by wheel of fortune (I was thinking about it earlier in the day). I did spin the wheel at least once. Couldn’t remember my outfit or who was competing against me. I also thought about me chatting in a random Discord server, then one of my online friends starts typing and I greet them before they send a message.
I had various dreams today that kept switching while I was half daydreaming half asleep, I can’t remember the exact ones but I believe they involved animals, not entirely sure but I forgot to write it down initially when I was going to do so ;-;
So, the dream starts during some part of the Lego Movie, then it jumps to the scene where Emmet falls down the hole to the piece of resistance, but instead of going to it, he ends up in a 2010s Roblox game, with the camera switching to a third person point of view of him falling down some funnels, with past usernames and passwords (users who use my internet/service provider) showing between the funnels, then finally ending up in a 2010s place with the old Roblox house. He then walks around a bit, then gets corrupted by some glitchy being. It then turns somewhat into a Ruben Sim (or an “old” “I found this scary thing”) video, with someone else playing the place with him. The two walk around together, trying to find hidden clues about a mystery they were trying to solve that was about the creator (which I found out to be me (my roblox username) by this point) who made the place, then the place starts getting corrupted once they find out about something groundbreaking. Then (coincidentally) it turns into a VibingLeaf (the guy who makes video creepypastas, including Roblox ones) video with all the textures getting mushy, purple, distorted, and darker, and the two start to run around trying to find more clues, then they both fly up and out of the game, with one of them mentioning my internet/phone provider as a cause of the corruption. It then cuts to screen recordings of clips of people visiting said place, with one clip ending with a large yellow Rthro head is covering the screen with the default smile after a player walks around in it for a bit, then it blinks after it stares into the viewer for a while, causing the user’s storage to fill up, another with them playing the game normally and finding a glitchy being distorting the game then the clip ending, and other clips that I can’t think off the top of my head. I woke up afterwards.
I was in the neighborhood where my brother's apartment was, and it involved a red car acting like it's in an AI video, moving on its own to the side (it was in a parking space) while I was around it. Couldn't remember or note down much at the time.
The dream involves a scientist in a lab creating a glitchy monster, outlined in orange and colored in a deep black. The monster corrupted its creator and decided to overtake the entire building the lab was situated in. The dream turned into a video game, where I was in the POV of Shadow, but it turned into third person sometimes as well. I ran on walls, hid out of sight of the monster, scurried through pipes and rooms, until I woke up randomly.
I saw a video where someone was recording a big cat (similar to a caracal) that was lying on its side, until it randomly shifted into a painting resembling the Mona Lisa, with the cat instead of Mona, wearing a red dress and being muscular. It shifted into a tiger-like anthropomorphic creature randomly afterwards. I have no idea what else the dream was like, but I considered it feeling like a Skinwalker was in my dream.
I was watching a looping video of a tiger laying down on its side on sand next to a semi-muddy river and a dark oak tree. The tiger yawns at the peak of the video, showing its teeth and maw. I suddenly become the subject of the video, being in the loop while petting the tiger's body and messing with its mouth. I can't remember any other info, other than the fact that it felt nice to see the white tiger. (I honestly wish I could see one IRL too, lol)